Saturday, June 1, 2019

Happy jobs

I am happiest when what I do makes others happy and I can see/facilitate that moment
-Party hero
-Retail associate at CB
-Volunteer/Students/Rents/teachers @ RP
-students @ Beacon
-Trainings/org/sales Pentagon w MK
-Liked being able to use my knowledge on the job to serve others (teaching/sales)
-Liked being able to be myself (silly with kids or laughing w customer)
-Liked positions where I felt good allot the product/service I was offering

Wednesday, June 25, 2014

Shamika's Dictionary: Healthy

Originally written 3/24/12


What It's Not

Not about a number

     -On a scale
     -On a clothing tag

Not heteronormative


     -Skinny
     -Muscles
     -Model/Dancer/Athlete

Not all about food


     -Diet
     -Carrot sticks, celery and water
     -Restrictive

What It Is

About Confidence

-Looking good in the clothes I can fit
-Looking and feeling good in the birthday suit ;-)

About the Best Me


-What makes sense for my body, genes, etc
-Sustainable long term
-Okay w/possibly never being high school weight b/ also striving for it as a goal
-Outie sticks out and is not covered up

About Good Lifestyle/Choices


-Good food in modesty
-Still eating fun food
-Embrace color and nature at every meal


Healthy Affirmations

I want to...

Be able to run for a bus-and catch it!
Not be winded after several flights of stairs (at work, in the subway/municipal buildings)
Feel comfortable in every article of clothing I wear
  • Professional
  • At Home
  • Formal
  • Out and About
  • Fun
  • Sexy/Date Night
Train for and run (before I am 40 if God says the same!)

  • 5k
  • Half Marathon
  • Full Marathon
Play group sports with my community

  • Volleyball
  • Dodgeball
  • Ultimate Frisbee
  • Football
Be up to date with my healthcare professional exams/needs

  • Dental cleaning 2x a year
  • Annual Physical
  • Psychiatrist
  • Therapist
  • Gyno check ups

Friday, February 28, 2014

Bio Check

What am I eating these days?  Whatever my partner cooks which ranges from African cuisine to homemade granola.

What am I praying about these days? Getting through this paper or that assignment or just today.  I am doing my best to remember the intercessory prayers too.

Who do I love? I should have an easy answer for that.  You is the short one.

How am I living?  In color.

Now that I have procrastinated long enough, I'm going to finish this paper come YouTube or unread emails!

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

Communal Meditation

Tonight I looked into the eyes of a stranger and exposed myself.  During the "diad" portion of social meditation at the Shambala temple, I sat across from a woman under the age of 30 atop a soft mat and box shaped firm cushion.  We were told by the facilitator to simply look at the other person for the first portion of the meditation.  No expression, no smile, no societally established norms to fall back on.  We were warned that the experience could cause us to laugh out of nervousness or feel fear from the energy created between each of us.  Both were true.

Before this vulnerable moment, I began the evening of Shambala's 30 and Under Meditation as a beginner in the side temple room.  We were provided instruction on the Shambala method of meditation.  Having already done some meditation with Pandit, the Chaplain of Union Theological Seminary, I anticipated deep breathing and resisting the urge to fall asleep with closed eyes over the scent of incense. I was only correct in anticipating the incense.  Interestingly, Shambala is a practice of meditation done with eyes open--as our normal reality is lived--and with normal breath.  The stance of the body was to have our knees below our hips and our hands palm down on our knees.  Our chin was to be slightly tucked in and our lips slightly open to allow our jaws to relax.  

The lasting impression of the practice was how grounded it seemed to me.  The intention behind each aspect was centered around how we live in everyday life.  In fact, the facilitator repeated that we should be gentle to ourselves.  There was no right and wrong and that personal kindness can (and will) be applied to the rest of our lives.  

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

I was marketing to people but no one was buying

so since you don't care, do you mind if i tell you something.  now i don't know what you are gonna do with this information, but since you and i both don't care, i guess it doesn't matter now.  ever since i met you, i have liked you.  i still remember the day on the gray campus when i first told you and you freaked out.  besides the fact that it was quite painful and tramatizing, i continued to feel for you.  now i have only a few months to do anything if anything.  you know all those times i was talking to you and i would shake my head and walk away.  i remember doing that quite often.  it was because you were either hanging around a girl or they were hanging around you or i was feeling those feelings that i could never develop anything so i felt stupid and out of place around you and felt i shouldn't torture me or you so i leave the situation.  now, i am against the ropes and basically, i see that i have nothing to lose but everything to gain.  :) that is, of course if you want to...

Thursday, January 9, 2014

To Northwest Leadership Foundation

An important aspect of growing up in San Antonio was the combination of a vibrant Hispanic community, my strong participation with my church and the integral role that my black family played in developing a sense of responsibility to my kin and community.  I celebrated Cinco de Mayo year after year in school, participated in family birthday parties which included everyone during the festivities, and volunteered heavily in my church’s tutoring, youth choir, and youth bible study ministry.  The morals, values, work ethic, pride for my community, and confidence in myself can all be traced to specific people or events in the Alamo city and I believe I can foster these traits and more in the youth of Tacoma, Washington.

The Northwest Leadership Foundation in Tacoma is a program that puts its faith first within its values just as I strive to do in my own life.  When I perused the AmeriCorps site for programs which would allow me to grow and develop myself in an effort to prepare for graduate school, a spiritual based yearlong opportunity seemed a fantastic fit.  I would be able to serve a community and accomplish my gap year goals in a beautiful area of my country that was new to me while growing my personal faith.Tacoma, being the third largest city in the state of Washington, is comprised of 60% Caucasian while the rest of the population includes black, Hispanic, Asian, Native American, and other distinct groups which all possess the same challenges that many growing urban cities of diverse communities face: low income and minority students struggling to obtain the most from their education as impoverished and minority cultures struggling for a voice in the community.  

I have lived through poverty, overcrowded public schools, and the identity crisis that W.E.B. DuBois describes as a “double consciousness.  As a potential mentor and servant of the youth community in Tacoma, I hope to engage deeply with students and communities both inside and outside of my own.  Developing meaningful relationships will give me the opportunity to speak positive and inspiring truth into the lives of young people the same way the Deacon from my church or the Director of the Texas State Math Camp changed my outlook and trajectory in life by believing in me.  In a year, I could develop my spiritual and social leadership and gain life changing experienceswhich will go on to shape how I choose to serve other communities I go on to live in.

With all the benefits of the program, I realize that there will also be challenges.  Living in an entirely new part of the country can be exciting but I will also need to be open and flexible to the new people and a different environment to what I am used to-basically I am talking about snow!  Gratefully, I lived in central Illinois for almost 2 years so snow is no longer as new to me as it was growing up in south TexasI also anticipate dealing with a Latino community and because I have studied Japanese more recently than I have studied Spanish, I fear I may be a little rusty with my command of the language.  Of course, because I loved learning Spanish, I actually am looking forward tobrushing up on los palabros y mas all summer long just in case I am needed in the Tacoma Latino community.  Coming from a city heavily influenced by Hispanic culture, I know how much cultural capital the Spanish language can possess.  I look forward to embracing these seeming difficulties as opportunities along with the tremendous chance of a lifetime.

Dear New Sector Americorps


I have spent four years on leave between my junior and senior years at Stanford University in order to pay off a housing bill.  During that time, I worked through temp agencies, acquired and used a certified nursing assistant license, and held a job over a year for the first time in my life.  I also took advantage of a community program offering a complementary Clemente humanities course.  For the years I spent out of school, I learned about myself as well as what communities have to offer their residents.  I learned more about resources and opportunities from librarians and community centers than anywhere else.  When it came time for me to consider a program for my gap year between undergrad and graduate school, I knew I wanted to give back and pay forward all that had been given to me.
As a contributing member for the New Sector AmeriCorps program in either Boston or San Francisco, I look forward to spending my gap year making a difference with a corporation or institution from within.  Working side by side with people for a year I will have the chance to build experiences in an office environment as well as learn how a non-profit works.  Certainly, as with any other time I have given my time and energy for others, I know I will find myself rewarded in many unexpected and long-lasting ways.  Getting to know people at their need allows me to see people beyond superficial assumptions.  The relationships I make will do more than simply help those I work for.  I will gain insights about myself and the world around me which will contribute to bettering the woman I am becoming.  Living in a new city also seems like a wonderful way to build self-confidence, stretch my opinion of what I can do, and see a new part of my country.  Most of the people in my family have never left our hometown of San Antonio.  Every time I venture out into the world, I have more to bring back when I return.  
Once chosen for the program, I will have the chance to pool the people and soft skills I have gained from the varied positions I held over the past few years and use them all for a business that is providing its community with needed services.  I have worked several positions making phone calls for a myriad of companies, done physical labor as a certified nursing assistant and in a warehouse, and worked in a number of sales positions.  I am comfortable working with people of all ages and my definition of “working” includes doing what I am asked for, well, and then finding something else to do.  Being the oldest of four children in a single home, chores and helping out were a natural part of my life.  The work ethic my mother instilled in me carries over to each task I am given.
Though the program will take me far from my mother in Texas, I know she will continue to be proud of me as I do good with the gifts I have been blessed with.  Thank you for your time and consideration.  

Sincerely,



Shamika Goddard